Sunday, October 31, 2004
7:51 PM
jiayou
sunday - 7.56pmtue - 430-630pm exam
better start studying real real hard.
jiayou~
Saturday, October 30, 2004
7:14 PM
我哭了
今天不是个好天气也不是个好日子。。。我哭了两次。。。
早上，心情很差。。 家里又叫我做一些事情。。。 好讨厌。。 然后更多事情发生。。。 本来要去读书的心情就因为心情极度的差而回家。。
在路途时候，就觉得好累，好大的压力，心里很崩溃。。眼泪慢慢的流出也开始。。 但我也没有哭出来。。连忙的忍。。
对妈妈的态度也不好。。。 ：（
回到家， 吃了午餐，看一下电视就去睡。。 因该想太多了。。尽然梦到我被车撞倒。。坐在轮椅。。好难过，好悲伤。。在梦里我又哭了。。。
但是我梦到我的好朋友。。他们来给我鼓励。。也让我笑了。。我也能站起了。。 我仿佛在reality懂我在笑和哭。。。 真的是日有所思夜有所梦。。。
也因为这样在屋外下起倾盆大雨。。我做了一个很温馨和快乐的梦。。。
要开始读书了。。。
加油！～！～
Friday, October 29, 2004
9:22 PM
a gd start :)
a gd start tday..juz had my 2034 - maternal paper... hmm gd start cuz seems to be smooth riding.. :)
hopefully my bio and 2035 also will be like tat...
jiayou jiayou~!~
7:10 AM
150th post, 3591
my 150th post. 3591 view on e page. and 3591 can be juz my grp of friends :) but neverthless.. thx for "hearing" out distressing.. lol..anyway it also mark e first day of my exam today.
jia you. & till e 5th nov.
and i can offically hevok "P
Wednesday, October 27, 2004
8:37 AM
Rabbit Proof Fence
Was flipping my cd rack when I saw this vcd. Realize that I have not watched it after I buy..-.-|||
Watched ard 11pm at night.. ard 1hr + show time.. it set me thinking again..
Rabbit proof fence
rabbit proof fence tells a story of a gov. policy that required “half caste” children (whose mothers were aboriginal and whose fathers were white) to be taken away from their homes by the authorities to be trained as a servants.
Based on the true story, it says about how 3 girls ran away from a hostel back to their home their country at Jigalong. The distance – 1500 miles.
They were captured by this guy call Mr Neville. He was the chief protector of aborigines. He is the one tat captured the “half caste” children so that the “half caste” children will be advanced to white status. He does not want to have another 3rd races going on if there are an increasing of “half caste” children.
The 3 girls were captured and place in a hostel call moore river. A place where all the “half caste” children were held at. A place where they will learnt skills how to be servant. They ran off from the place, wanted to go back to their homeland 1500miles away..
They have to avoid the trekkers who will capture them.. avoid people that will bring them back to moore river.
They followed their way home following the rabbit proof fence.
Unfortunly, not all the 3 girls back to jigalong safely. One of them were captured by the trekker and bought back to moore river. The other 2 walked to jigalong 9 weeks. 9 weeks of walking, starving and almost dehydrated and die. The fact that still have to avoid the trekkers… is a very hard thing..
But things doesn’t always have happy ending. The main character Molly eventually went back to Jigalong. Hid in the dessert and got married and have 2 children. However, Mr Neville found where they were and captured her n her children along to Moore river.
She managed to escape again back to jigalong with her child... Again by walking... But the fact that when her child was 3 years old. She was captured again back to moore river. And since then she did not see her child anymore.
There was this scene which I was so deeply saddening with the character. The scene where Molly and the other 2 girls were captured, her mother and the grandma cried n her grandma took a stone and continuously hit on her head…
Heart breaking scene for me.
There is this scene where it tells me tat one of the servant is “half caste” and worked in a white family. she was sexually harassed by the male employer.
Yes I know, I cant assume that everyone will be harassed. But it tells me tat is also not definite that they can progress to a white status. No matter how I looked, it still gives me the sense that being their own native is better than what she doing now.
This was shown at the last:
Aboriginal children were forcibly removed from their families throughout Australia until 1970.
Today many of the aboriginal people continue to suffer from this destruction of family life, identity and culture.
They call it stolen generation.
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I believed that the natives got their own way to live. U cant break them up though some might feel tat is a gd deed of Mr Nevile.
But did anyone consider about the native feeling? I doubt so.
The natives have their own way to live. Their own lives to continue. Their own culture to respect.
This make me think of the literature story I have read “to kill a mocking bird”
You guys should watch this film and probably read that book too.
Tuesday, October 26, 2004
5:57 PM
*Yck - Cck*
sudden urge to write on the train:sitting on e seat
thinking nothing
mind not working
looking at girls younger then me
wearing miniskirt & chatting loudly
sitting infront of me with legs wide open
they don't seem to know
they don't seem to care
being expose is like nth to them.
i overhead a monotonous tone
a simple minded guy was chatting with his friends.
another grp of girls (with miniskirt again)
look at e guy and giggle loudly
are they laughing at him or i juz think too much?
the friends of the guy sounded superficial..
they are entertaining themselves and to bring a fool out from the guy.
shake head shake head
an indian guy shouted at the girls
asking them to pick e wrapper
they had thrown behind their seats.
they were shocked. i can see.
shivering & stuttled voice came following
"ok..ok"
for now they did not chat loudly.
they use sms to communicate within theyselves.
presuming they are scolding/critizing e guy..
cause i overheard them scolding "crazy"..
wat's next.. is where i alighted from the train...
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hmm.. what i can say that i am not pervert to look at the girls exposing themselves lah...
is juz happen that they sit opposite me and i juz saw wat's going on loh.. but they did not leave their legs open so widly lah...
they do keep their leg close...
onboard the train i saw many many mini skirt passing by me.. and i can only say.. i will not wear any miniskirt. cuz i see the chances of exposing... T_T
cannot make it.
duno who make the idea of wearing miniskirt....
3:09 PM
crack crack
oh.. my neck is breaking into pieces -.-''' *cracking osund can be hear*now @ school com.. studying + listening to P10.. yawnz.. mugging for my exams.. not alot of ppl here which is totally so quiet.. ^_^ hehehehe...
now having my little short break for blogging.. lalalala...
Jia you le :)
juz now went down to orchard specialist center for job interview for john little with 2 of my pri. sch friends... when we go there.. wah.. so many ppl -.-''' lol.. by the time we reach there.. cuz is like so many Q.. then.. they say the postitions are fully taken.. so.. we are under KIV loh....
i think find another job liao le..
aftertat we went to makan at this cafe.. the FOOD IS VERY VERY NICE.. haha.. and very cheap.. $5 got main course (spagathi) + soup + garlic bread + salad + dessert.. wohoo..
nice food... :)
next time i shall bring u guys to go there ")
Sunday, October 24, 2004
10:49 PM
A short quote i found on website.. maybe u guys should take a look.. *srry in chinese* *btw.. no comments on my tarus issue? -.-''*
愛情誓言
拥有愛，是一种幸福；失去愛，將會是另一种幸福。
每一位离開的人，都应该被祝福；留下的人，该学会珍重。
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對於感情不夠积极的男女來說，「緣分」往往是最好的借口，
彼此错过了，卻心安理得，連遺憾都可以掩蓋得那麼完整。
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有時候，一次巧合，让她對一個人刻骨銘心；
而另一次巧合，卻让她有足夠的勇氣，將那個人忘得乾乾淨淨。
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幸福的秘訣之一，是抓準愛的節奏感。
隨時提醒自己目前的節拍，踩穩步伐，
該停時停，該走時走；該進時進，該退時退。
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10:37 AM
TAURUS WOMAN (tat's me)
TAURUS WOMANA slim moderately tall woman. Taurus woman is funny and a jolly person.
Square facial bone structure, high cheek bone. Her round big eyes sparkle
with wit and curiosity. You will not see many round faces Taurus women, and mainly she will have a strong jaw line.
*not see many round face... i think i belong to tat small percent ahhahaahha*
She is a constantly change person. If she up sets, she will not show it and
will keep it to herself for a long time, and will remember them so well. If she gets really mad at you, you will suddenly become a totally and
completely stranger to her.
*ohh.. remember them so well..hoho..dun make me angry or upset wor.. hahahaa... (but actually hai hao.. i dont remember much lah... wah sound like me like very revengeful kind -.-'''' err.. but when i'm mad. i can be really really "black face".. and dun think u want to experience :)* bleah *
She is a patient person, but always need new excitement. She hates long talk
meeting, long and endless conversation. She can be in love with you today,
and one day she could act as if she has never loved you before. She has
patient with what she wants to do and will never give up until she gets
there. She will be very persistent in what she is doing till she has reasons
for stopping her project, then she will quit.
*nod head* *nod head* doesn't mean that i could act as if i nv love before means i am flirtish person leh.... *nah nah* is patient or patience ?? -.-'''
Money for Taurus woman is not the most important factor in life. She thinks
of money as an instrument for assuring of a good living. She has more
satisfaction in achieving her goals more than satisfaction in fine cloths
and luxuries. If you like a woman who always thinks of love and romance
,then you are dating the wrong girl. You can not tell her to stay at home,
she likes to work and preferred not work at home.
*Truly nod head* *but sometimes love & romance also gd mah ^_^* sometimes certain things to spice up the life right.. hahaha... * *money to me. now.. i think quite important.. probably i'm not having much money loh.. lol.. maybe in the future when i work then i think is not the most important ba... for now is important but my mind is not always money minded. *
She loves animals and likes to surround by animals. Love is in her head, but
Freedom is in her soul. She has her own idea about love and afraid to show
her true feeling for fear of rejection. She is not the type to talk about
love, but she sure has a strange way to show it. She is not good in showing
when she is in love, but if she loves you she will be honest to you than any
other women.
*woooo. yea :)* *dun need much explain. yup.. i'm tat kind of ppl.. * lol..
She will be honest to her love one, but at the same time seems distant. You
will have a good relationship with her, if you allow her freedom. Do not
force her to be with you in a poker game which she hates, but let she goes
out swinging with her friends if she wants to. She will be different than
other girls, and she thinks different is one of her unique quality. She is a
public figure but belongs to no one.She will not stay with you, if she
th! inks you are not sincere. She likes you to have personality, but better
not to compete with her. Loves her, but not too much for she afraid it will
limiting her freedom.
*err.. yah... i dun like being tie upon.... nod head*
She always stand out of the crowd for something she dares to do. You could
see her dress like a poor farmer dinning in the fancy restaurant, or dress like a nun in an a cocktail dress party. If you are a politician who are
looking for a wife, she will make a good one because she is cleverly smart
and she could get along socially with any type of crowds.
*wow.. i nv realise i could be so OUTSTANDING... lol..... dun think so leh.. err.. did i always do that?? hmmm... any politician out there.. lol.... "P*
She is not a jealous type because she has to know you thoroughly before accepting you in her life. She has more curiosity in life than wondering if
right now you are flirting with someone else. If you keep a distant from
her, or go away for a few days, she will miss you more. Even when she is
dating you, she also able to fond of someone else, if you do not have
something she is looking for. She will never disappoint you or hide behind
your back to make you loose face, but she is the type who just going to tell
you to your face that " We're better off breaking up".
*er.. i believe i am a jealous type. err.. does tat so call like saying i'm "hua Xin" >_< "
She always remember her first love. Taurus woman holds the best record for
divorce for she does not care about how people think of her, but every
things should be done for "Happiness".
*DivOrce?!? err.r.. not in my mind would i think before bah.... Dot.. i dun want to tink abt it.... *
She has lots of friends and sure of herself, so you will hardly see she
delays any of her thoughts before her action. If she think of something, she
will go ahead and does it. She has many men wanting her for her constant
changes is the challenge. She can be cute and funny, but suddenly cool and
tough. She has her own style of dressing up, so you could see her dress like
an old mate today, and tomorrow she may dress like she comes from Mars. She
will have that interesting hair, dress and a look unique from anyone else.
*errr... i dun sound tat unique loh... hahaha.... i'm still a ground person...*
She likes to learn about your dreams and your thought. She has fun teasing
you and making jokes. If she did something wrong, she won't hide it from
you, but do not ask when she is not in the mood to talk about it. She hates
to owe people money and take promise seriously. If you promise to pay her
back, you'd better paid up.
*seriously this is so true! i like to hear ppl's thoughts.. haha... but when i in badmood u better dun come and touch me... lol.. i will bite "P*
If you want to make it with Taurus woman, then do not be jealous or
possessive, do not be narrow minded, do not criticize about nonsense or
small and insignificant matters. Try to likes her friends and let she has
her privacy, then she can be very sweet to you.
*hehehe... hai hao lah.... hahaha.....*
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So wat u guys think?? sound like me??
waiting for ur comments :D
Saturday, October 23, 2004
9:01 PM
ZZzZzzzz
today.. slept alot.. 2hrs here and there.. making my whole saturday play games + sleep..even now.. i still feel like lying on my bed.. i think too much sleep makes me feel so moodless...
think tmr i better go out and study.....
but duno where i should go to....
any great intro to where to study??
or maybe i shall stick at home and study... (which is like so.. impossible)
juz dun want to think tat much.......
2:13 PM
wishing out
ytd went out with ah min to BB to study for our upcoming exam... chatted with her.. then i realise quite some time nv meet out with the buddies le.. miss u all wor ") eheh....anyway.. congrats to desmond :) hehe.. anyway.. dun need to thank me so much de.. my advice is nth much lah.. but wat's most is to be happy oki :D
actually wanted to type somemore but i thin mind block le... i juz wanna go out.. go to the beach.. lay myself there... feel the wind..
i wanna reach out to the sky.. somehow somewhere where i can throw all my mind out to it...
somewhere i can feel isolated. somewhere where i can feel i'm alone somewhere i can re-energize..
somewhere i can juz sit down.. glaze at the scene without any much distraction and juz slowly hear the wind.....
i juz wish the time can stop for a while.
like the bridge... far far away...
the bridge
Friday, October 22, 2004
6:16 AM
*pat**pat**
morning..er. feel likes going to write a lengthy blog.. maybe when i have the mood ba..
anyway i think this month or this season... there r more couples issues going on le..
err so to my friends who are facing it..
*pat* *pat*
"All labour that uplifts humanity has dignity & importance & should be undertaken with painstaking excellence" - Martin Luther King Jr.
Thursday, October 21, 2004
8:10 AM
2046 quote 2
爱情也是有时间的, 如果早已点或晚一点遇上, 结果都会不一样....*nod head*
*sigh*
Wednesday, October 20, 2004
5:47 PM
Love
juz pick this up from charlene's webby...---------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Don't be too good I will miss you.
Don't be too caring, I might like you.
Don't be too Sweet, I might fall for you.
It's hard for me to love you when you won't love me after all...
Bottom-line : A person who makes me love him is actually a person who loves me more than I love him.
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If someone comes into your life and becomes a part of you but for
some reasons he couldn't stay, don't cry too much... Just be glad
that your paths crossed and; somehow he made you happy even for a while.
Bottom-line : Time will tell. If he's yours he will surely come back.
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Don't throw your back to love when it's already in front of you.
Don't drive it away from you because if you do, someday you'll think
again why you let love fly away when it was once residing next to you.
Bottom-line : Treasure the one who loves you! It's not easy to find a person who loves you. It's always more valuable to have a sincere heart.
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The greatest regrets in our lives are the risks we did not take.
If you think something will make you. happy, GO FOR IT. Remember that we pass this way only once.
Bottom-line : Time doesn't wait. If you think you might have found the right one, treasure the person, don't let that person get away. Don't let fear hold You back. Give it a try else you might regret later...
"No one other than ourselves know what can truly make us happy."
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Two tear drops were floating down the river.
One teardrop said to the other, "I'm the teardrop of a girl who
loved a man and lost him. Who are you?" ..."I'm the teardrop of the
man who regrets letting a girl go..."
Bottom-line : Nobody will sympathize with a person who constantly
lets chances pass by without making any efforts to salvage them. We normally don't realize how important our loved and close ones are until they leave us, and then we start regretting, which results in misery.
Lost time is NEVER gained again
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*nod head* i guess what's say up is true....
8:08 AM
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Tuesday, October 19, 2004
11:00 AM
patience
just now been playing my maple story.. well well... doing some quest which is like so toot loh..and 1 player was saying "who will put all these things in the subway" hahahaa.. idiot progrmmer "P
but i realise one thing.. i've been quite impatience..... hence i took a few min to rest and to chiong and i did after few rounds..
well. in e end finish e quest takes 45mins -.-'''
moral of the game to me today: to be patience ")
Monday, October 18, 2004
1:24 AM
2046 - thoughts review ponder imaginative
"从前, 当一个人心里有个秘密, 却又不想告诉别人...他会跑到深山里去, 找一棵树, 在树上挖一个洞, 将秘密响洞里诉说..." - 木村拓哉 (2046)"Long ago, when someone had a secret he didn't want anyone else to know, he'd venture into the mountains, find a tree, dig a hole into it, and tell his secret to the hole." - Tak 2046
the story is about a mysterious train left for 2046 every once in a while. everyone who went there had the same intention...to recapture their lost memories. it was said that in 2046 nothing ever changed. nobody knew for sure if it was true, because nobody who went there had ever come back... except for tony himself. he was there. he chose to leave. he wanted to change.
2046 a story about love and fate. this is what i think after watching the movie.
the story writes about how tony cant put down his love for maggie cheung and to accept other women in his lives. even he tried to leave the place where the both of them met he still cant get her out from the mind.
juz like the story say
"2046 is about a man who attempts to leave behind his past; to bury that which he cannot forget yet the burden of what he has to carry makes it almost impossible to move beyond what he has to done and seen.
All of us in a conscious or unconcious way leave behind memories in order to begin new lives. some maybe do it only once; others do it constantly. the flim is about such a man whose love was refused by a woman (maggie cheung) he loved.
subsequently he turned down the love of another women and lost a chance to begin again. he began unconciously and for various reasons to reject every new opportunity to find love."
and i realise i'm like him. constantly rejecting new opportunity becuz i'm still carrying the past and him.
looking at the zhang zi yi acting as the woman who loves tony. letting me feel the pain that a person loves another person with all the heart and being rejected can be painful and sad as can be.
i remembered one scene whereby tony said something about love needs the right timing. you get to know the person or too late..the chance will miss. guess i truly agree to that. when the timing is wrong, everything can be wrong.. think all these thing need fate ba..
i guess everyone has its own past to carry and to bury... true enough.. without burying the past memories.. we will be like tony.. unconciously unaccepting rejecting new chances to start over again.
i remember one of my friend having a problem on relationship.. to accept or not to accept.. to find someone new or to reject one?
well guess.. i think u might want to watch the movie and give u some idea? i duno. i find such movies can let me ponder for some time.
if u keep waiting there thinking and thinking.. things will nv change.. initiate the first move and who noes it will be better than wat u think it will be. such chances come rare. i dun even have it.
u should treasure the chances. i dun think i'm able to tell u what to do, who to like, and who i think u should accept. but i believe that deep in ur heart, u have a person in it.. juz think abt it and i guess everything will be allright..
sometime ppl say we are too young in relationship.. i dun denial that but i think that if we are maturally understand and responsible what's going on abt it.. i guess take one step at a time.
to find someone new is like taking tat person as a new tyre to forget abt everything.. of cuz is unfair to the person and wass more are u really true to her and not only yourself??
i'm not saying tat i'm maturally ready for relationship or watsoever... i believe one day u will start thinking abt relationship thingy and think that if i'm able to be involve in it all these things.. but of cuz everything lies in ur hand.. i guess only u understand what i'm talking abt and i hope u noe wat i am talking..
i guess for me.. i'll juz like tony.. unconsiously carrying my burden.. think i'll juz need sometime to forget abt it and to lead a new life.. probably this might be a start for me. i guess so.
i've seen ppl in & out of love. ppl nv been in love.. ppl who have countless of love and still acts the same way and the same mistake. i've seen & hear ppl troubled in love.. i've seen ppl in love is smiling chippy...
guess the defination of love is only the person who is in now can answer it.
for me.. i'll juz sit outside and look around.
guess i talk some unrelated stuff.. guess my friend will be fine and hope anything is allright.
and to me myself. i think soon i'll juz have to start walking from the place i dreamt i though i could be.
sooon.
i juz love that quote from tak in 2046.
"Long ago, when someone had a secret he didn't want anyone else to know, he'd venture into the mountains, find a tree, dig a hole into it, and tell his secret to the hole." - Tak 2046
bury it and no ones noe. or maybe is there someone willing to be this tree..
hahah i guess not.
ciaoz.
Saturday, October 16, 2004
10:39 PM
continueq
continue tmr. morning.abit brain hardening. play too much game le >_<
Friday, October 15, 2004
9:53 PM
YipEe~!
hahah i guess everyone knows what i'm going to type...... yes..J.E.R.R.Y I.S. O.U.T.~~!~!~~!~
my wish comes true!
muahhahhahahaa.......... *grinz*
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i feel so -.- now....*cramps* *cramps* *inpain* (sigh)
nvm jerry out enough to put my pain off score first for a while only...
oh yah.... :) finally no more projects le!! today finish le... tat means i can chiong for my psycho test le!!!!!!
jia you jia you!
gonna rest.. ciaoz
*oh yah.. realise 3000+ ppl le.... though doesn't mean anything much but means that at least i know my friends are reading rigt?? or dont tell me u guys juz click and dun read?!? -.-'''* saddening le wor..........
9:53 PM
YipEe~!
hahah i guess everyone knows what i'm going to type...... yes..J.E.R.R.Y I.S. O.U.T.~~!~!~~!~
my wish comes true!
muahhahhahahaa.......... *grinz*
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i feel so -.- now....*cramps* *cramps* *inpain* (sigh)
nvm jerry out enough to put my pain off score first for a while only...
oh yah.... :) finally no more projects le!! today finish le... tat means i can chiong for my psycho test le!!!!!!
jia you jia you!
gonna rest.. ciaoz
1:01 AM
1:07am
my very first time that i rush a project till so late.. now i;m freaking tired..tmr 9am presentation. 830 to meet them. 745 to meet eve. 530 to wake up ba.
Thursday, October 14, 2004
7:59 PM
sorry to my friend and him
sorry if my previous blog have created some misunderstand between my friend and someone. ( i think u noe who u are) and i cant find u in msn and hence i have to type this. if u are looking at my blog.anyway rest assure that i'm not talking abt u guys. it juz some relationship that i've seen in my sec sch lives.
if there's any misunderstanding or anything else happens. i'm here to say sorry.
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and what i can only say to myself is that. this is my blog to say. my view my thoughts my feelings.
nv in my life that i've wrriten blogs that create misunderstanding.... probably is today ba.
if there's anything u do not like juz leave a msg. but presuming that if i have to apologise to everything i have to say. i think i have no idea why should i have a blog in a way that everyone is so negative abt it.
is not like i'm writting abt sex. promoting it. or supporting abortion. i'm talking abt what i think what i feels and what i like.
and if this mental thinking of mine is being blocked. i really have nothing to say.
this is where i can actually express out my thoughts. serious crapping funny. watever.
and why should i be explaining abt it? presuming i can juz heck care and maybe juz dun even bother to say sorry.
but no i did not. and now i'm so freaking bother abt it... if my blog have created ppl to be angry, pissed, annoyed, sad or watever.. i'm a person typing without using my brain. and true to it. i did not deny abt tat. sometime i juz type without considering other ppl feeling. and i full of guilt to my friend and the person.
so someone juz tell me what i shall do to my blog.
(dun tell me is my blog i should juz continue with the thinking of wat's going on through my mind... i think i need to find another little place of my own.)
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10:05 AM
lessons learnt ytd.
hey yo... has been a very long time nv start blogging le.. this is due to recently playing a newgame call maplestory. u guys can go to this website and take a look.www.maplestory.com
actually yesterday happens a lot of things... take a lot of time for me to ponder..
yesterday in school was very very stressed and in pain. i was having my bad flu.. which miracly happen to be well now :D and whenever i had to sneeze.. my chest pain.. very pain.. is like they cramed together..
lucky my flu allright now.. cuz i dun want to undergoes the pain again.
anyway ytd was feeling very frustrated and frustrated.
becuz i got this presentation to be presented today. which i'v finish presenting le :) now having my breaks sitting under the aircon.. *shivering*
anyway.. was quite pissed off with 1 of my grp mate becuz he nv contribute anything to the project.. is like everytime having grp meetings he juz came and st. doesn't even contribute. anyway is not the first time le. previous presentations he juz take his part and present.. no contribution watsoever...
i feeling so frustrated.. cuz is like tmr presentatation and then.. he doesn't even care.. so pis loh.. almost cry lol... but nv lah.. luckily my friend and i managed to finish it :)
is like he is a leecher leeching away out marks like tat.. haix.... watever lah.. present finish le..
i think this is part and parcels of life ba...
oh anyway.. juz now was talking to my friends abt relationship. most of us agree that having a relationship that have no trust really cant make it well.
u cant be over possess a person. u cant over board things. jealously, mistrust, all these really can affect 1 relationship.
last time i got this friend's inciddent where by the guy control her life... wherever she goes, she will have to report to him. he even instrust my friend not to talk to guys.. all these things and also not to wear bare back.... -.-'''
i mean if u are saying u care for the person... but there's always a limit to everything. probably i have no stand to say anything like tat. but wat i feel that even the basic trust is being broken. i dun think there's much survivor rate of having the relationship goes longer.
woo sooo cold.. here.. think i stop here le :)
ciaoz
10:04 AM
story to share ")
a story to short from desmond's friendso here's the url for u guys to take a look to ")
http://iamjuztoobored.blogspot.com/2004/10/lai-lai-read-story.html
desmond i help u to promote leh!! muhahahaha...
Tuesday, October 12, 2004
9:58 AM
*ah choo*
ewww i think i'm falling sick soon... ahhhhh.... -.-''' anyway has been quite a long time nv blog le.. but dun feel like blogging..juz feel so uncomfortable.. -.- shack...
vit c.. Where r u ~
>_<
*ah choo*
Saturday, October 09, 2004
7:56 PM
ChippY~
lol.. i feel so chippy now... ^_^dun ask me why.. suddenly got mood to be chippy.. singing songs.. lalalla.. irritating my parents... hahahaha... >_<
wooHOoooo since i got mood i better go and tidy up my bed.... lalalala....
chip
chip
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Friday, October 08, 2004
9:53 PM
*thinking (-___-)*
hmm.. chatted with ah boi & cy abt relationship...haiyo... why when i being asked abt all these thing i juz feel so ..... i juz dun understand abt me..what am i thinking.. all these long..
it juz keeps me thinking over and again. over the same issues.
i think it really takes time to heal my wounds and also it takes time for me to shake him off my mind.
how to stop thinking of a person..?? sometimes is juz stuffing my way up.. saffocating me. someone save me.?
finding des to distress.. but he's not online. think he pig ba. Zzzz all e way..
anyway to cy & ah boi.. jia you to you guys :) u nv know if u nv try :)
i think i juz need to go and sleep. forget abt tonite thinking.
nite. ciaoz.
9:13 PM
*a moment of happy than saddness*
ahhh... so sad now.. singapore idol.. david yeo out from the competiton.... wth is singaporean thinking anyway.. -.-''' haiyo.... then wat makes me piss off is that jerry is still inside?!? oh my goodness!~!~to all who likes jerry. forget abt this part of my journal. i juz dislike him. so sadded now.. i believe EVERYONE In the competition is WAY BETTER than him loh.. wah kaoz. i really no comments le loh..
i juz Hope he got out from the competition. -.-''' geeze.. reallY kelong to let david yeo out.... wah koaz~
first is beverly, jessea. Both are WAY WAY WAY WAY better than him and some others.. but in the end. everyone jaw dropped. even mine. omg. wat on earth is coming to?
anyway i saw from some channels they say jerry's in mostly becuz of cityharvest is voiting..... well... i really got nth to say...
i know this competition is also counting on the popularity BUT the MAIn issue is THE TALENT!~ then if like that i can asked a very handsome guy or a preety girl who got juz average voice to go up.. then can liao mah...... haiz.... i think probably jessea and beverly juz lost to his "popularity" and truly i feel so disgusted abt it.
dun try to tell me "hey is juz a competiton" cuz.. i juz feel tat is not done any justice at all... to @!$&^! with ppl voting blindly without looking at the talent... i juz hoped the next round. he will be out. if the rest of the contestants does not do any grave mistakes. or maybe singaporeans should juz wipe the eyes and listen for the talent.
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oki. enough of my complaining.....
actually no mood liao le.. should juz now write in my journal... anyway.. today's my last day of attachment loh.
then very happy cuz last day. then very thankful to everyone.. the S/N the A/N the Patients, My collegues, the lecturers... everyone plays a part.. :D
Ms lim pass me back my clinical diary.. of cuz PASS. i so clever *wink* *wink*
hahah... but she say lah. i muz improve on my careplans... -.-''' "P but nevertheless she got praise me "u are a deligent student and ur clinical skills are good" mUHAhahahahahhahahahahah......
*grinz*
*floating*
hahahha.....
evaluation: this 2 weeks in ward.. has been an eye opener esp. delivary suite. i finally see how woman give birth and even get to see caesearean section. i managed to feel the pain of the mother and the support and loving from the husband.
in nursery i managed to carry a baby when my phobia was erase off becuz before that i always scare to carry baby cuz i scare to hurt them.. though now i know how.. but i still need time to build up my confidence :)
is really a wonder when u are pregnant.. and after birth. got this patient tell me abt her life.. her preg. life.. haha..... is nice hearing stories and that makes me know tat i like interacting with them listen to their stories :)
i think that's the end.. now calm down liao.. hahah... but next week off to school for more studies and of cuz.. EXAMS..
Jia you Jia you~
Thursday, October 07, 2004
4:36 PM
*searching*
Muahhaha.. saw this email abt the personality regards to the zordic and the blood group.... this is totally so true... hahahaha... check in outTaurus & O type
April 21 - May 20
For Girls
Personality: Your concern for others associates you as the "consoler." You are readily accessible to everyone, even if that means you have to go out of your way for that. This is why you are well-liked by your friends and the surrounding people.
Love: You come across as a rigid, inflexible character but your inherent charm will benefit you in the future realm of intimate relationships. One problem you have to overcome is the fear of your partner's betrayal. This is why you distance yourself from many men who are interested to get to know you. You also have the tendency to tease them. However, serious relationships will occur, which will not be more than two. Your commitment to a serious relationship is genuine.
Life: Once marriage does occur, your realm in the household will be much more suitable than a career. This is because you treasure your family and have the knack for domestic life. If you do decide to enter the workforce again, make sure you still consider your family as the priority in your life, since difficulties will be store for you in this field.
Match
Good Match:Since you are the possessive type, your perfect matches are partners who stay loyal to you and continue to do so with diligence. Such characters are A-type and B-type Taurus, Cancers, Virgos, Capricorns and Pisces. A-type and B-type Scorpios always argue with you but this friction is a positive attraction that doesn't tend to wane away.
Bad Match: AB-type Aries and Sagittarius are impatient. They will never understand your slow, peaceful nature. AB-type Aquarius and Gemini are rational and intelligent but they are often ATNA (all talk no action).
Muhahaha... true hor?? hmmmm... so hor...to my friends out there.. Look under good match hor.. and see ur friend who are single available got money got looks nice character wah.. then come and intro to me... MUhahhahahahahahhaha..... Or whoever see this hor.. send in ur application.... lOL~!~ Warning find me bad match ah.. i throw u back one chopper.. muhahahaha........
*pengz*
lol.. saw Gemini - ATNA (ALL TALK NO ACTIOn) hahahah......
anyway here are the links lah... see u guys underwat.... lighten up ur day :)
> Aries & A-type http://www.opane.com/opane/ariesatype.html
> Aries & O-type http://www.opane.com/opane/ariesotype.html
> Aries & B-type http://www.opane.com/opane/ariesbtype.html
> Aries & AB-type http://www.opane.com/opane/ariesabtype.html
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> Taurus & A-type http://www.opane.com/opane/taurusatype.html
> Taurus & B-type http://www.opane.com/opane/taurusbtype.html
> Taurus & O-type http://www.opane.com/opane/taurusotype1.html
> Taurus & AB-type http://www.opane.com/opane/taurusabtype.html
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> Gemini & A-type http://www.opane.com/opane/geminiatype.html
> Gemini & O-type http://www.opane.com/opane/beminiotype.html
> Gemini & B-type http://www.opane.com/opane/geminibtype.html
> Gemini & AB-type http://www.opane.com/opane/geminiabtype.html
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> Cancer & A-type http://www.opane.com/opane/canceratype.html
> Cancer & O-type http://www.opane.com/opane/geminiotype.html
> Cancer & B-type http://www.opane.com/opane/geminibtype1.html
> Cancer & AB-type http://www.opane.com/opane/geminiabtype1.html
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> Leo & A-type http://www.opane.com/opane/leoatype.html
> Leo & O-type http://www.opane.com/opane/leootype.html
> Leo & B-type http://www.opane.com/opane/leobtype.html
> Leo & AB-type http://www.opane.com/opane/leoabtype.html
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> Virgo & A-type http://www.opane.com/opane/virgoatype.html
> Virgo & O-type http://www.opane.com/opane/virgootype.html
> Virgo & B-type http://www.opane.com/opane/virgobtype.html
> Virgo & AB-type http://www.opane.com/opane/virgoabtype.html
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> Libra & A-type http://www.opane.com/opane/libraatype.html
> Libra & O-type http://www.opane.com/opane/libraotype.html
> Libra & B-type http://www.opane.com/opane/librabtype.html
> Libra & AB-type http://www.opane.com/opane/libraabtype.html
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> Scorpio & A-type http://www.opane.com/opane/scorpioatype.html
> Scorpio & O-type http://www.opane.com/opane/scorpiootype.html
> Scorpio & B-type http://www.opane.com/opane/scorpiobtype.html
> Scorpio & AB-type http://www.opane.com/opane/scorpioabtype.html
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> Sagittarius & A-type http://www.opane.com/opane/sagat.html
> Sagittarius & O-type http://www.opane.com/opane/sagot.html
> Sagittarius & B-type http://www.opane.com/opane/sagbtyp.html
> Sagittarius & AB-type http://www.opane.com/opane/sagab.html
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> Capricorn & A-type http://www.opane.com/opane/capricornatype.html
> Capricorn & O-type http://www.opane.com/opane/capricornotype.html
> Capricorn & B-type http://www.opane.com/opane/capricornbtype.html
> Capricorn & AB-type http://www.opane.com/opane/capab.html
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> Aquarius & A-type http://www.opane.com/opane/aquariusatype.html
> Aquarius & O-type http://www.opane.com/opane/aquariusotype.html
> Aquarius & B-type http://www.opane.com/opane/capricornbtype1.html
> Aquarius & AB-type http://www.opane.com/opane/aquariusabtype.html
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> Pisces & A-type http://www.opane.com/opane/piscesatype.html
> Pisces & O-type http://www.opane.com/opane/piscesotype.html
> Pisces & B-type http://www.opane.com/opane/piscesbtype.html
> Pisces & AB-type http://www.opane.com/opane/piscesabtype.html
Happy checking~ i go and ZZzZzzz update blog @ nite :)
Wednesday, October 06, 2004
10:54 PM
MoUtH TaLkS
suddenly got urge to blog becuz of des (again.) he always give me something to voice out upon de.. muahhahaa..anyway he;s bothered abt a lot of his friends are asking around the same stuff that almost everyone is asking.
tat makes me *nod head* sometimes when u are so troubled over certain issues.. or when u say 1 joke or inciddent.. then another person came in and ask "hey wat happen to u ah?? " then u say the whole story again.. then say finish after 10 mins.. anyone ask "hey wass up.. with XYZ ah? "
u noe those situation when u have to say again and again.....
of cuz.. they are ur friends... they CARE abt u.. but err.. sometimes hor.. u can maybe ask someone who is closer to the person. ask the person wat's going on.
cuz when one is borther or troubled over an issue. they are like so freaking pissed off with everything. and the fact that the person say once is fine. and then imagine to say so many many times... ah..... fed uP.. i'll juz have to entertain saying "err.. like tat loh"
i think most of my friends encounter tat... muhahahaha......
anyway.. another point i was thinking tat... when i say "is nth" + a damn serious + F up face. dun come and pester me again. cuz 1st i am so freaking !#%!&$^!&* or 2nd i am still !^&!^$&!@^$ or 3rd is something that is inside my inner space. and i do not wish ppl to know abt.
i believe everyone got its inner darker secret that no one else noe.. and to tell a person abt this secret or watever is already not a secret.
mouth TALKS. u cant expect them to "eh keep a secret hor" most ppl will say yes and out to another point mouth TALKs again. and they will tell another person "eh dun tell hor.. then... again and again... so THE WHOLE FREAKING WORLD KNOWS!~~!"
tsk tsk. and i once belong to tat grp of ppl. and i believe everyone did tat before. thus.. tsk tsk. MOUTH TALKS..
anyway i also duno what i typing. hha. cuz my mind is still in my case notes. :)
ciaoz.. :)
take care
err.. anyway he called me juz now. glad tat he's fine :)
Tuesday, October 05, 2004
10:14 PM
hmm...tue...(-_-''') hmmm tue...('''-_-)
Hola is tue :)hmm.. actually today nth much. .went back to the ward.. err.. so practically juz take parameters.. blar blar.. i juz wish to go back to delivery suite and see somemore case..
they are interesting. too bad mdm yeo juz place us in there for 1 day nia. 1 day only!~
hmmm.. so today chiong for case study. 2 cases tmr have to handed in. which means.. i tmr still have to go to school to check out some references :(
sadded. tmr have to wake up early to go school le..
jia you jia you :)
i think that's it lah... oh yah back home saw zq.. long time nv see him.. think he's still allright ba. apart that though i grew taller a bit but.. it seems that i nv catch up on his height.. or he freaking grow taller again??!??
watever lah...
hope my other friends are getting well also :)
anyway to my friends who are going to take their prelims, tests, exams.. watever all e best. take care :)
jia you jia you!
ciaoz~
10:21 AM
wat a wonderful Monday
MOrnign Morning.. :)wow... yesterday was Cool~ xiao juan and i were posted to delivery suite ^^ and if u have read the previous post i was like so freaking scare that i will *faint*.. nahx...
i'm strong *wink* *wink*
muhahahaha...
so when we reached there in e afternoon.. we managed to follow a staff nurse to.... a casearean surgerY~!~~ which is also LSCS.. wooohooo.... tat means we got into the operating theater.. wow.. my very first time to go in with the OT gown and cap the shoes are so Cute~!~!~
i'm trying to find a pic to show... but dun think have.. too bad my phone does not have camera function.. otherwise u will see me anyhow shoot.... loL~! >_< of cuz the shoes and the gown nt the procedure -.-'''
anyway.. so we went in.. wow... then we juz watched them do the procedure.. but i was thinking.. so scary.. >_< cuz they actually use force to open the abdominal -.-''' then they take out the baby.. wow... it wasn;t tat gruesome as it seems lah...
the mother delivered a baby boy.. but was quite flat.. as in the breathing is rather low.. as the baby's respiratory distress due to the meconium has passed into the amonic fluid.. hence having hard to breathe.. the nurses and the doctors were bz helping the little kid..the baby is sitll breathing but was low.. in the end the baby goes to the Neo-natal ICU.. for futher observation...
juz hope all the best for the little boy.. :)
anyway.. we went back to our delivary suite and guess wat.. we only left 3 patients left -.-''' and my friends in the morning shift saw 4 NVD (normal vaginal delivery) leh!
so the staff nurses were telling us to pray tat one bed to give birth.. and.... lucky us.. we managed to look at it.. but wat makes me feel so scary is how the woman scream >_<
hao ke pa. >_<
is nt the delivery process... is how the woman screaming in pain.. ahhhh.... looking at her and listening to her in pain.. makes me think errr......errr......err... >_< but also.. not most of the woman will scream.. some might juz be very calm and deliver the baby...
it was a fast delivery.. a baby girl was born :)
cute little baby.. awww... :)
actually we can see another delivery de.. but becuz the patient is more sensative towards e "service" hence.. we cant go in lah.. but remembering my lecture teacher saying labour process is like Cheer leading like tat.... i truly agree.. we were juz outside the room.. and can hear the Prof., e doctors, e nurses.. all 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9,10 PusH~~~~ after sometime.. Again... wow... *nod head* *nod head* cheer leading...
then the baby girl is born.. they are like.. cheers sia.. "congrats" "congrats" wow.. :)
anyway i got catch a look at the baby girl.... She's A beauty... a beautiful baby... :)
well... looking at delivery process wasn't tat grusome and scary as i thought.. but what i was most afraid is how a woman able to tolerate the pain she has.. and is true by one patient (the woman tat scream) she juz said to her husband "U are not a woman, u will nv understand!!" hmmmm..... (nod head) (nod head)
so to my friends esp the guys.. in the future u will be a husband, a father.. so.. juz keep quiet.. give her support.. *wink* *wink* let her screamed and shout.. cuz the pain i believed is more than i can imagine..
the staff nurses and the sister were extremly nice.. :) they are so wiling to teach us rather than *ahem* cant say out yet.. :P get to noe a S/n taking Adv. Dip in Midwife.. she was very nice :)
well... a wonderful monday to start and it all thanks to them :)
Sunday, October 03, 2004
7:25 PM
relationships
juz now chatted with des.. look at his blog.. feel tat relationship is so conplicated. so chim. so troublesome. so messy.probably there are ppl now reading this saying.. it's not tat messy, comlicated as what i think it is..
wat i feel is tat once u involve in a relationship, it takes 2 ppl to clap to survive, takes 2 ppl to substain the relationship, takes 2 ppl to maintain the relationship as wat it can be. once the 2 ppl does not clap.. one fell off.. is not a piece. is not a full one.
i told my friends once. relationship it's not tat simple. before getting attached. the guy will chase u till no matter where u are.. after that.. honey mood period.. after the honey period..everything will be quiet down.. is like before u get married, the husband will be talk sweet to u.. after married.. everything will not be the same thing as u think u are.. or wish to be.
there are some things that u need time to fade or u need to meet another person to give u the same feeling again.
unfotunatly i have not had any of it.
there will be some time when u will be thinking alone.. thinking abt the past. thinking of wat happen. thinking of if had done a mistake on doing certain things.
maybe there are times where u will think of ur exs. u might juz think "what if" "what happen if nv.." all the assumptopn starts to pop out..
i sometimes think what if i nv met him. what if i nv know him. then i'll not be so trouble here right.
now i understand why my friend will continue waiting for a girl he likes even though tat girl got bf.
is the determination tat counts. is the feeling in ur heart that keep beating. is the way he/she makes u smile. is the way u see him/her ur day will juz brighten up naturally.
and till now i still think of him.
i think it really takes time or till i meet someone who can make me smile naturally.brighten up my day.
i believe tat day will come.
for now. i juz have to take one step at a time. "chuan dao qiao tou zi ran zi"
Saturday, October 02, 2004
11:52 AM
Jar and the coffee
A good article that meant to be shared! Read it yourself!happen to see this story on my mail list.. happy reading :)
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When things in your life seem almost too much to handle, when 24 hours in a day are not enough, remember the mayonnaise jar and the coffee...
A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him. When the class began, wordlessly, he picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls. He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed that it was. So the professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar.
He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls. He then
asked the students again if the jar was full.
They agreed it was. The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course,
the sand filled up everything else.
He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with a unanimous "yes."
The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table and poured the entire contents into
the jar, effectively filling the empty space between the sand. The students laughed.
"Now," said the professor, as the laughter subsided, "I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life. The golf balls are the important things --- your God, your family, your children, your health, your friends, and your favorite passions --- things that if everything else was lost and only they remained, your life would still be full.
The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, your house, and your car. The sand is everything else-the small stuff. "If you put the sand into the jar first," he continued, "there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls.
The same goes for life. If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff, you will never have room for the things that are important to you. Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness. Play with your children. Take time to get medical checkups. Take your partner out to dinner.
Play another 18. There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal." Take care of the
golf balls first, the things that really matter. Set your priorities. The rest is just sand."
One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffee represented.
The professor smiled. "I'm glad you asked. It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem, there's
always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend."
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11:22 AM
yawnz
hola~was very tired after since thur.. then nv blog le.. well... thur saw one gruesome scene whereby i saw the removal of vagina pack... and the best thing is tat i juz ate my lunch at tat moment...
-.-'''
so watching the doctor pulled out the gauze from it... is like never ending.. >_< and my friend suraida cannot stand it.. so in midway she walked out...
anyway... i prefer morning shift.. the time faster passed rather than afternoon -.-'''
anyway yesterday did a dressing.. and it wasn't a gd one.. it was slow and i keep breaking the aseptic technique.. >_< haix... i got to train more.. then s/n was quite disappointed... haix sadded lah....
anyway luckily went out with my friend, botak teng to watch white chick.... muhaha.. did laugh my whole brain and heart out... err sound kua zhang hor.. hahah but it was definaly a movie tat i want to laugh out..
kewl.~ u guys muz go and catch it... laugh ur way through.. lol...
anyway if he got read this blog.. thanks for the movie :)
but i still feel tired now.... yawnz.. bth ah.... gonna sleep more... "P
finally left 1 week of attachment and tat means my exams are coming >_< stressssssssssssssssssssssssssssss :(
jia you ba~
anyway if mun fun got see this blog.... HAPPY BDAY TO YOU~!~!~!~ ^_^