has been going to hospital for a week plus. not because is my job wise, but daddy admitted to hospital due to his fever. spiking fever despite antibiotics..etc..sigh.. before work see him, during lunch see him, after work see him... daddy took scan.. scan results are back and things are not looking optimizing.the impact really took away the energy i have.. draining me out..
spoke to dr ben abt dad's condition, his reply to me... i expected the ans but reality is that harsh. eyes were filled with tears... but didnt cried.. the sorrows were swallowed.. heart pain, headache, worried, afraid all filled myself...
waiting for bro to come back and tell him.. i really have no strength for now to carry on whatever i want to do...
sisters are placing me to preceptorship course.. i've presentation to do... work start to pile up.. juniors to supervise.. am i expecting too much on myself.. i really dont know.. maybe i should just slow things down... i really need a break somehow.. otherwise 1 day i will have another episode of breakdown.. who knows.. even though we all know that one has to be strong.. you have to be strongest.. you know we will expect certain issues in life.. yet the agony, the impact is so much that at times you are not able to stand that strong that firm after all..
i've been a loanshark for awhile asking my friend to return back my $150. yet she can simply ignore all the sms, msn, friendster msg... cant take it today.. just now friendster add comments to her. i hope if she does read my blog. i really need you to return my $150, you know who you are. im not gonna be too mean to write your name down afterall you and i were pri sch friends.
Friday, August 10, 2007 11:26 PM
overheard A mei's latest song - 如果你也听说
Very nice song~ very sentimental.. and can feel the song.. she's super~ she's back :) tmr going to accompany my future da shao to see bridal gowns~ whee nv seen before.. haha together with bro.. :) later evening celebrating ming's bday.. bz day again.. tired tired~ yawnz.. enjoy the song :")
张惠妹-如果你也听说
作曲:周杰伦填词:李焯雄 监制:崔炎德, evi yang 编曲:adrian chan
突然发现站了好久 不知道要往哪走 还不想回家的我 再多人陪只会更寂寞
许多话题关于我 就连我也有听过 我的快乐要被认可 委屈却没有人诉说
夜把心洋葱般剥落 拿掉防卫剩下什么 为什么脆弱时候 想你更多
如果你也听说 有没有想过我 想普通交朋友 还是你依然会心疼我
好多好多的话想对你说 悬着一颗心没着落 要怎么附和 舍不得又无可奈何
如果你也听说 会不会相信我 对流言会附和 还是你知道我还是我
跌跌撞撞才明白了许多 懂我的人就你一个 想到你想起我 胸口依然温柔
许多话题关于我 就连我也有听过 我想我宁可都沉默 其实反而显得做作
夜把心洋葱般剥落 拿掉防卫剩下什么 为什么脆弱时候 想你更多
如果你也听说 有没有想过我 想普通交朋友 还是你依然会心疼我
好多好多的话想对你说 悬着一颗心没着落 要怎么附和 舍不得又无可奈何
如果你也听说 会不会相信我 对流言会附和 还是你知道我还是我
跌跌撞撞才明白了许多 懂我的人就你一个 想到你想起我 胸口依然温柔
如果你也听说 有没有想过我 想普通交朋友 还是你依然会心疼我
跌跌撞撞才明白了许多 冷漠的人就你一个 想到你想起我 胸口依然温柔
如果你想起我 你会想到什么
Thursday, August 02, 2007 9:36 PM
i guess everyone has it's limit to everything.. tat includes my dad..
*sigh*
sometimes i see my dad & mum.. and my whole family... i will take in deep breathe...the stress & pressure that i faced, no one will understand it.. but is not that bad that it seems too...
but now im handling a huge amt of pressure T_T
argh.
Wednesday, August 01, 2007 9:55 PM
been out with friends to celebrate ben's bday.. to celebrate su's bday...
both 21st le.. old old le~~ muhahahaha
had yuki yaki @ marina square on sat... turns out.. hmmmm is a 1 time go thing bah.. though the sotong nt bad.. but overall i tink not worth to go.... and the ice-cream.. errr it taste funny... >.< hahaha...
sun went to have lunch with ming, lun, min & su at the jap restraunt near the thai express at citylink.. the black black shop with 2 ninja there... the food is quite cheap.. and is nt just thai.. they have western, chinese, and jap... still got claypot laska.. lol... like everything sia O.o the waiter is nt a local, we had a hard time figuring out wat he say.. i guess he understands too and take the bento set and refers to us as a promotion.. :) follow on.. saw another waiter that we mistook as our long lost pri sch mates. in the end didnt go and clarify... lol... but i guess not lah... so overall the food that not bad.. lun and i tried the char siew ramen... the char siew very very nice... miso ramen better... :) mine is soyou.. abit saltish.. >.< wat to do is soyou le mah~~
after that went to k-box.. had a crazy time taking 6 person shot together using lun's camera.. hahaha... 6 ren zi pai~ haha.. had a fun day with them... then follow on to dear house had dinner and of cuz gave him his present :) hehehe.. ^^
anyway today is 1st AUG and is Nurse's Day~ Happy nurse's Day to my dearest nurses :) we have been working very hard facing lots of FON stuffs going on.. but whatever we do our mind is always priority for the patient... :) we will withstand all the @*&#^*! stuffs~~ we will be strong~~ yipee!!!