Monday, April 30, 2007
11:24 PM
just packed finish my bag for tmr trip :) going to genting + KL wif Xx, Kim and chu chu~ hahaha... all my collegues :)
gonna have fun.. shopping ^^ yipeee
just clearing away my cam's memory stick then saw tis photo... taken at when was it ben's house... eating his taiwan maggie mee...awww so nice... so hungry.. Lol~ gonna find food and eat :)
will be back on friday :)
yeah sat pre-celebrating on bday~ horray~
heheheheh on leave till 9th may...
10th may gonna start work.. bday start work... O.o hahahaha..
gonan have fun ^^
Thursday, April 26, 2007
10:00 PM
been very long time never update...dad's condition is getting better each day.. slowly... but have to go thru a precise CT scan and then follow by a chemotherapy... cuz the histopathology results are out that 3 out of the 14 lymph nodes got the cancer cells... hence is better to go for the chemotherapy... as for the CT scan... due to dad's previous intraop... ultrasound liver was done... seen nodules... thus going for tis CT scan will make it much for detail...
what we can do is just taking 1 step at a time....
but am glad that he's health is getting better... :)
as what my other friends said to me... i muz be strong too... i will
recently went for Xy's birthday chalet at aloha... wah... as wat her sis say.. they invite 100 over ppl all over the world.. :X hahah birthday girl was high *well not in terms of drunk* hahaha... but was happy to see all of us around :) hahaha am glad to see the rest of the sisters too... such a memory... and the photos we took.. keep reminding me during poly times we took.... talking abt work.. abt relationship.. abt stalkers... haha all sort of ppl out there... really am glad to see everyone there :) hopefully next meeting everyone will be free too ^^ hehehehehe...... saw her boyfriend... heheh was surprise cuz didnt expect to be babyface though younger than me by 1 years... hahahaha.... oh well... im like 16 years old look even though im approaching 21... lol.....
talk abt 21 :)
hehehe starting on leave on coming monday.... to 9th may... i know i know.. 10th May i have to work....... sad? i duno.... because fall on weekday so not much of ppl can celebrate with me too... hahaha..... poly friends book me on tat slot le..... :) hmmmm.... so going to Genting/KL with Xx, Kim & Chu ~ hahahah 4 of us...... wooohoooooo........
just settle the tickets and the hotel :) getting excited!!! lalalalalalallaala
am leaving on 1st may night then... coming back on 4th May.. Friday :) hahahahah
need any gifts?
been bug by ppl what presents i want................
eh eh eh
i got... but dun think u guys can support it for me hahaha
Piority number 1 : i want a new PC (obvious u guys wouldnt buy for me... so i will pay for myself... hahaha when i earn enuff money)
Piority Number 2: get a better camera (hmmm not a must but the camera recently isolate itself... ahahahah)
Piority Number 3: More clothes, More Shoes, More Bags, more money ^^
hehehehhe :)
Saturday, April 14, 2007
11:20 PM
dad's been recovering well :) good enough to grumble loudly than first few days.. and he's transfer back to a normal ward :) and happen evelyn is working there.. :)dear's pop was nice :) surprise by him for taking top at his section *clap * clap* but pinch his cheek cuz he knew abt it but he hide it and gave me surprise when i reach there hahhahaa...
went to pear's 21st bday... ok ok... wasnt expecting to be rather quiet though... then bought kk's present :) pass cy his super belated bday present... hahaha........
had a little >.< sorry sorry dear.. he almost make me cry cuz he was keep quiet all the while... >.<
things are back to normal le :) hehhehehee.... but so sorry... i didnt meant it........
slept too much with sotong thats why so blur... :P
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
10:55 PM
thanks for the concern & support that you guys haven been giving me..dad's sugery ended succefully yet with bad news... dad's liver was seen to have some nodules.. and some quite relativly big...
he will be going for chemotherapy... and during e therapy they will have a scan for the liver.. and if the nodules reacted to the chemo is a happy thing :) however... if dad's nodules didnt react and instead grow bigger..... other plans will proceed.. which include surgery.. or change of other chemotherapy..
accompanied him into being anaesthesia today... have some moments of cying.. cuz u see ur dad changes from being so strong to a frail old man.... heartbreaking for me... after op dr cheong came and speak to my brother and me abt the gd & bad news...i cried... i duno what to do.. i duno what to think also...
is just your love one on the surgery... you will think of the worst event... worst outcome... and when dad come out... he was warded into the Apu (acute pain unit)..can see his tired face... talking to him my heart goes low again.. cuz he doesnt have much strength to speak after op... so he need more rest.. and the more u see him... it just make me more heart break...
i just hope for the good... everything will be smooth... dad's health gain back.. everyone in the family is healthy.... i cant think of what will happen next... i realy duno what to do if he really leave us... i really duno...
be strong. i will. i have to be strong.
be positive. i have to.
*breathe in & out*
i just hope everything happen now is just all dream. how wishful am i thinking.
Monday, April 02, 2007
10:52 PM
is a tiring day for the whole family. went to accompany dad wif bro to see doc. results not gd. come out with positive sigmoid colon cancer.disappointed to hear that. was trying to hope that is not cancer. yet i cant run away from all these issue.
surgery is the best choice. yet dad was abit reluctant on it. dun want to finacial burden on both bro and us.
he was preparing himself for the worst...
from last friday till now.. from wat i heard from the colonoscope results.. i cried... today i hear the results.. i almost cried again.. tearing eyes.
sister say "you've to be strong"
i may appear normal strong at work... back home... talk to bro abt dad issue... thinking abt family... and esp tinking abt dad.. what he told bro and he's instruction to him if he's gone.... im tearing again.
i know surgery should be ok.. of cuz no 100% over it. but whether is spread to other places... i really duno what to do... how to react..
death is an unavoidal issue.
but no ones like seeing ur love one.. being haunted by it... is just breaking to pieces.
i cant say im ok. but i know i will have to be positive. be strong abt it.